Kim Sam Soon

How I wish someone would give me a Kim Sam Soon pig...
Yeah!!! I love this Korean romantic series so much!!!

How's (my) life?

Lately someone asked me a question I usually don't get to hear from my friends. Its just a simple inquiry; "How's your life?" and yet I was left wondering how would I answer such question when I get the chance to stumble upon it again. Of course, I gave a quick answer, explaining the reason behind my SHOUT OUT in my Friendster profile. My shout- out simply stated a word, CONFUSED, though I know that a lot of emotions were hidden within that sole description of how I felt.
I felt so confuse 2 weeks ago, pondering on whether I should take a risk and apply for the Korean Government Scholarship Program for Undergraduate students. I REALLY WANTED TO GRAB THE OPPORTUNITY TO FULFILL ONE OF MY DREAMS, to be able to study in a Korean university. But making such a big decision was not that easy. The risks were too high. I would have to sacrifice or give up my studies in UP, without the assurance that I would finish a degree in Kyongbuk Tehakyo. It was too difficult for me to decide.
I tried my luck and went to the Korean embassy. I arrived just a minute before the lunch break so I have to wait for 1 and a half hour before being interviewed and given a test.
Then i found out that I was not allowed to take up the course that I really want to pursue. As you can see, I wanted to be an English teacher in Korea, so I chose a degree in Education majoring in English. It was wrong for me to assume that I could take it up. They wanted me to chose among the list of courses indicated in the information booklet. Oh gee! I just can't force myself to take up a course I know I might not excel in, especially if the medium of instruction is Korean.
So there, to cut the long story short, I called the officer-in charge the next day and told him I could no longer continue with my application.
end of the story

There are times that I feel that I have let a big opportunity pass me by. I could have taken the risk and who knows, it could have changed my life in a positive manner. But then, I've realized that I must not rush into things. Patience is a virtue, they often say.
So now, I am very much happy with my decision to finish my study here in UP and who knows, after 2 or 3 years, I could apply for a scholarship in Korea for a Masteral degree. I guess that would be better.

Now, I can say that I am happy with my life. I have this urge lately to travel around the Philippines. I will go on a trip to Vigan, Ilocos Sur this Friday and I'm excited. Since I rarely go on trips and vacations, I feel that I am not making most out of my life. Maybe, I am missing a lot of things in life by not exploring the beauty of the world. How I wish I have the money to go to Boracay this summer! But yeah, even if I have the moolah for it, I don't have anyone to accompany me..so what's the point? I couldn't just go their on my own, right?

I promise that in the near future, I would seek adventure in the following places:
I hope I would have the chance to visit them before I depart form this World.
1. Boracay
2. Palawan
3. Cebu (Plantation Bay)
4. SOUTH KOREA!!!! Of course. I swear that someday I'll walk along the cherry-blossoms lined streets of Jinhae!!!
5. California, New York, Canada
6. any Disneyland

Jesy....dream on!!!!! my pessismistic side might say.
But then this time I'll try to listen to the voice within me saying that I can do a lot of things if I persevere. So....Aja! Aja! Fighting!

Confusions

Never had I been this confused in my entire life.
It's too hard for me to make a decision.
Should I take a risk or stay at the safer side?
I am so confused.
My mind is spinning and yet sometimes it feels numb.
I have to wise.
I shouldn't have jumped into the water right away 'coz now I feel trapped.