March 26, 2005

This is my first time to spend my HOly Saturday studying for an exam and making a paper..plus chatting in YM, of course. Should I feel guilty?
Well, yesterday, We went to church and I stood up at the back for 2 hours bcoz there are no more seats available..and its a tradition in our church to walk along the aisle in your knees..and yes, I did it. I know that is nothing compared to the pain that Jesus felt in the cross.
Then, last night, I was so sad..and I cried myself to sleep bcoz my parents are blaming me for something which I don't like to discuss here.. I think they are unfair, I always try my best to be a good kid..and that is what I get??
But I'm okay now..still a little sad about what happened yesterday, and I don't want to talk to them right now..sorry.
ok bye

March 26, 2005

This is my first time to spend my HOly Saturday studying for an exam and making a paper..plus chatting in YM, of course. Should I feel guilty?
Well, yesterday, We went to church and I stood up at the back for 2 hours bcoz there are no more seats available..and its a tradition in our church to walk along the aisle in your knees..and yes, I did it. I know that is nothing compared to the pain that Jesus felt in the cross.
Then, last night, I was so sad..and I cried myself to sleep bcoz my parents are blaming me for something which I don't like to discuss here.. I think they are unfair, I always try my best to be a good kid..and that is what I get??
But I'm okay now..still a little sad about what happened yesterday, and I don't want to talk to them right now..sorry.
ok bye

March 22, 2005 Tuesday

Today is the last day of classes in UP diliman... FINALLY!!
But I can't really say that I'm too eager about this summer vacation..It's just that I feel that I waited for this vacation for so long..and now that it's almost here..I no longer like it.. kc I'll miss ****** ( well, I to be more correct, I should say; I won't be able to see ******)bkit kc this last few days ko lang sya talaga nagustuhan...wrong timing..
Well, this is quite a special day. Our presentation in French 11 turns out to be okay despite the fact that we are quite unprepared. After class, I saw Wap along the corridors of AS and then we talked about our recent lives..hehehe. Its fun to talk to her again, and I really did enjoy her company.. We were on a constant "trip". We just did what we feel like doing and its kinda crazy...I laughed a lot..Then we decided to stroll around the campus to have a chance to see ******. We saw him in FC..actually we are talking about choices of paths/ directions to take during that time.. Sabi ko sa kanya "Dito na lang tayo..malay mo dito ko sya makikita.. oh di serendipity.." Then after a few seconds.. he appeared near the intersection and walked infront of us.. I was surprised..aand as corny as it may sound, my heart did beat faster..

Fervent wish

I am beginning to like this guy from my school..He's taking up Psych..and he is so cute...he looks like as if he has just stepped out of an anime or any asian drama...
But the 2nd sem is ending too soon..I hope he'll take up summer classes...I fervently wish that we would be classmates in any subject nxt sem or this summer!!Please!!!

Such a happy day...

Hello, it's been a while. My week has been so hectic that I hardly could open my blog. Anyways, today...Ive finished quite a no. of tasks already like my exam in Bio and Eng 11. I have dread my Bio exam sio much that's why I put too much hardwork in studying for it. In my assessment, I think I will pass that exam..thank God!!
I hope i'll get a pretty good grade in Eng 11..my exams are quite high, my mistakes would only sum up around 8, i guess. And I've worked very hard for my final paper...i just don't know if my hard work will comply with my prof's standards.Good luck!!
Ang saya talaga ng araw na ito.. Yesterday..I was quite confused what to do this summer. I went last Tuesday to SSS.. to inquire about the summer job that they are opening for students. On that day, things were okay, and it seemed that i have a chance to work there. But yesterday, I asked my bestfriend to call their office and ask if they have an age requirement for the job..Aparently, they are requiring the applicants to be atleast in 3rd or 4th yr. college. And I'm obviously not.. So..sorry na lang ako..maybe pag 3rd year na ako.
Then...we opted to ask the Guidance Office of our former Highschool if they are still accepting applicants for student assistants. luckily, they are..so we decided that we will meet today to pass our resumes.
JOy arrived very late. I waited for her for 30 minutes in French Baker..I got bored so I bought a cone of ice cream..and I decided to go home..then I just saw her and she apologized..
I told her that i am no longer planning to work in SSA..bec. I'll just stay on my job in UP..while also taking up summer classes.She said she understands..(SYEMPRE, si joy pa eh super bait non)
So now,,,after so much pondering. i finally have a plan this summer..I think I'm lucky bec. I have a chance to work while taking PE classes and one GE, perhaps. I still don't know what GE subject I would take..Uhm..cguro Socio or Film, if ever...pra nood lang ako ng nood ng pelikula..gusto ko din kc maging Film critic..hehehe.
OK..gotta go..Au revoir..

March 10, 2005 Thursday

Hello!! Its been a while.. ive been busy these previus days..and I still am..
Ive just visited the blogs of my former classmates..at ang gaganda ng blogs nila..sana maupdate ko din tong blog ko n magkaroon to ng tag board, links, etc..whatever u call such things.. di kc ako magaling sa mga ganitong bagay.
Yesterday, I didn't go to work because I had a fever last Tuesday night, and I felt bad when I woke up yesterday morning..but thank God, I was able to recover fast.. I keep on saying.. Lord, wag naman po ngayon ako magkakasakit..ang dami kong kailangang tapusin..at yun nga..the Lord listened to my prayer..
well, I spent almost half of the day (yesterday) studying for my Bio exam..Im pressured kc un prof ko super hirap magpaexam..tipong cge, aralin mo lahat ng bio books and habang sinasagutan mo ung exam di mo alam kung saan mo kukunin un isasagot mo dun...
Then i studied my report in Kas 2..its about the present issue in sri Lanka about the Tamil seperatism... since kailangan..nagkaroon na rin ako ng concern sa issue na iyon.. pero naturally i'll say "As if I care...." Up to now..Im still trying to figure out the real sitaution in Sri Lanka..might as well go there..but nah!!thats way too impossible, and unnecessary, if I should say.
alors, mon "crush"(sorry, i dont know the french word 4 this) a envoie sms... Je suis contente...hehehe...mais, il a peux credits...

Today, I was very late for my eng 11 class...and they are already discussing something when I arrived( lagi naman eh!!) But its ok..we discussed some haikus today... I think its only in this class that Ive learned the real meaning and essence of haikus... Then, we are given a new task to analyze the poem 'Daddy' by Sylvia Plath.. that would be for our exam on next thurs.Another task has come my way...hay!!!cge..lang..matatapos ko din kayo..
But seriously, given the chance this summer..i'll read some literary classics..like Shakespeare's play, novels of Sylvia Plath, James Joyce,V. Woolf, and the rest of the authors that my prof is always mentioning..I should have read them in highschool...kasi naman eh..masyado kaming pinapahirapan sa mga requirements na walang saysay..tulad ng mga portfolios(as if namang ma-aaply mo un sa college)puro na lang drawing at pagpapaganda ng notes..eh up to now..pangit pa din naman akong magdrawing...so what did I get out of my HS education??(naku...they'll never forgive me if they read this...lagot ako!!) Sorry ha.. nothing personal..Im just saying what i have observed..I still love my (HS) Alma Matter. Im not saying that Im absolutely right, ok? That's just my opinion..(may freedom of speech kaya sa Pinas)
then.. sa linguistics class ko..wow..un prof ko, she knows, like 5 languages..I wish i could also learn a lot like her..well, right now I can speak French a little and the following sem.. Ill take up Korean..since un naman talaga ang gusto kong matutunan..
ok.. gotta go.. bye..

Its been 3 days..

hello, it has been 3 days since I last posted here.. Ive been quite busy.. and uninterested to post, thats why. My requirements in school are already piling me up.. but i'll be okay. promise..i'll take them one by one..and sooner they be finished. Sana nga..
Grabe. gusto ko na magbakasyon.. I still have an exam on Holy Monday, and maybe even on Holy Tuesday..haay..
But my life is still fine...my grandma celebrated her 69th bday yesterday, and the foods are great.
I haven't been thinking of anyone right now...
Tomorrow, we will be attending a debut of a former classmate of ours in 4th yr.IM so excited.. kc parang reunion na din un...
ok gotta go.. bye

Lost....

God, after reading all the love stories posted in peyups.com.. I am on a dilemma on what my true feelings really are... I feel lost, floating in the air without any direction to go to...
Shit! I dont know if am really over him.. (u know him... like the one Ive been telling u about? E****)Lately, i'm getting the nerves that I still have feelings for him, its just that they are burried deep down in my heart..but im pretty sure that it would come out again, given a chance that I would see him..
I dont know whats up with me that my memory of him would just pop out of nowhere and make me feel lost.. and confused.
I dont know up to when this would last.. maybe for a couple of days.. a couple of days wouldn't hurt at all, since Im used to this unrequited love, for almost how long? 5 years! Yes, 5 years full of hope, confusions, emptiness, and love...
I dont know if I am missing the person or my feelings for him.. I was so assured back then that he was the one I really like, I sheltered myself with that assurance..I was so comforted by the fact that I found the one for me.. although he hasn't found me.. not yet.
And right now..I am no longer sure..
I want to forget all my memories I have of him.. I was the only one who built it.. yet I can't throw it away by myself..