My highschool days.... & HIM

I studied in School of St. Anthony, its quite a big school located at Lagro, Quezon city. I liked the school the very first time I got a chance to visit it, probably because of the swimming pool(later, I would know that there would be a lot of obstacles for me to overcome in that pool).I started my 1st year with one of my bestfriends in elementary. We are really close even if we studied at different schools when we were in grade 6. I didn't have to handle the pressure of finding a new friend during my 1st day in highschool. But after a few months, she suddenly became mad at me for not letting her borrow my Bayron's file, its a short summary of the english grammar. Actually, I lend it to her but I asked for it back too soon that she thought that I was being selfish.. We got a new set of friends..and build a different set of personalities...I never really liked the way she turned out...sorry..
During my first year, I still got the chance to receive some honors..I was probably diligent at that time..
Also, during my 1st year, I MET THE CRUSH/LOVE of my life.. I still remember the first day I saw him. We were practicing at the quadrangle, and a friend of mine pinpointed him to me..No, it wasn't love at first time. He left a rather funny impression to me.. I thought he look like someone from a MORIONES play.. then only to find out that they would be presenting a moriones play for the foundation day..I swear I didn't knew that by the time I 1st saw him..Its weird, right?
And so, I developed a crush, infatuation for this guy. Me and my friend would call him "mr. NIce Guy" bec. he really did look nice. What I really liked about him was he is SO QUIET despite his popularity. He WAS even termed SILENCE OF THE LAMBs in their yearbook. I was young and I permitted myself to be crazy.. I swear, i really did look crazy at times that I saw him..
But he doesn't know me...I really have a bad case of unrequited love.
Up to last JAN. 1, 2005.. I decided to give up.. I admit to myself that we would NEVER be a couple.. never.. after all the text messages I sent him during special occassions, the cards and letters, I have finally realized that I must move on.. There is no point hanging around.. I have this weird theory that I cling on to my feelings for him only because I took the comfort that we would never be together.. that he was just a distant dream. I felt comfort because in reality, I am afraid to love and be loved..With him, I am assured that there is no chance for me to get really HURT..though I know that whenever he would not reply to my txt messages, there is a feeling of pain in my heart...
I really can't say that he is totally forgotten, I guess i never will.. but I guess my feelings for him is gone..it faded through time..my heart got tired of hoping and dreaming..I MIGHT BE MOVING ON..