(Not my usual) Christmas Break

In about 30 or 40 minutes, I would be preparing to go to work again. I am not the most industrious person I know. But hey, know I've realized that there is a reality in the belief that when you love what you are doing, you'll always have the energy to start your day with joy in your heart.I guess teaching is not really one of my passions, maybe it's the fact that I'm teaching Koreans that's why I am enjoying my 2-weeks side-line. It's sad to think that I would only be able to teach them for 2 weeks. If only, I don't have my "career" as a student assistant, I would have been very much eager to continue. But considering the months to come, school works really would not tolerate an additional item in my very hectic schedule (already).
Eventhough, there are some kids taht give me a headache, Tony 3 and Chris 2 for example, I can say that it is still so much fun to be able share some of my knowledge to them. I do hope that their minds would reatain all the things that I have tried to explain.
My favorite students are Tony 2, Jenny, David 2,Tony 1, Alice,Hannah, Sean,David and Joshua. Tony 2 looks like an angel to me. He is so gentle and kind. It was indeed a surprise to learn that he is a blackbelter in Taekwondo. Jenny is such a bright girl. She is also very kind and fun to be with. She gave me a Korean postcard and I really did like it! David 2, is of course, the ever-reliable student, who everyone trusts. He is diligent and respectful at all times. Tony 1 is so cute, and he loves to check my notebook in KOrean. ^.^ Alice is very pretty,gentle and kind. Hannah, Oh, I remeber the 1st time I met her, she kept on saying that I am strange. I took it as a compliment. Sean is determined to improve his reading proficiency in English, I can see that! Compared to James, he is a better person, I guess. He is also kind. The twins, David and Joshua, are very smart. I feel that they are giving their best to cope with their college life here in the Philippines. I also enjoy teaching David logic, hehehe..at least, I also got to review some topics of Logic.
The other teachers are nice nad fun to be with. Although I feel that sometimes, I am irritating them because I often speak in Korean. Yeah, I admit it, I'm such an inconsiderate and insensitive person for doing that. I'm very sorry.
I still have 2 or 3 days to enjoy the company of my new-found friends. It was such a blessing from God that I came with Francis last Dec. 14 in his new job (to sustain his "luho"; luxury). Thanks, Cis!!

Just catching up

Hello!!! It has been almost a whole month since I have last written an entry here.I can say that a lot of events have taken place on that span of time.
Well, I guess I should start with something that I am very proud of. The Korean Speech Competition was held last Dec. 7, 2005 at the Palma HAll AVR. Of course, knowing myself, I surely would not let such an opportunity to pass me by. So I decided to join with the hope that after several days of practice, I would be able to present a clear and interesting speech in Korean. My piece was very personal, Jong Sonsengnim, told me that she knows that it really did came from my heart. Plus the fact that she could see a lot of passion in my eyes. That was the first time someone complimented me that way. I am very grateful to my two sonsengnim. Dec. 7 was such a big ang long day for me. I had to attend my Poyer Yoga class at 7 am, then take an exam in Eng 22 and finally muster enough courage and confidence to deliver my speech in front of a big crowd. And yes! I was able to deliver my speech properly. My language proficiency is okay, I spoke quite fast, thinking that Koreans speak that way. I don't want to brag, but I did speak with an accent, although sometimes, I sounded mad, (thanks to the Korean movies that I had watched,,,the casts are always angry with someone!)Anyways, I got the 2nd place, and I am very happy because of that. I couldn't have done it without the support of Jong Sonsengnim, Racel Sonsengnim, and my ban chingu/ classemates in KOrean 10, 11 & 12. Kamsahamnida!
After the speech, there was a small gathering just to celebrate the success of the competition as a whole. They prepared a buffet of Korean dishes and If I should say, I enjoyed some of them, especially the Mandu or dumplings and the ttok or ricecakes. Btw, my classmates asked my Korean teacher to introduce me to one of the Korean exchange students. HIs name is Pak Jong Sub. (Brian is his English name). He's currently taking up mass comm in UP. He's cute...but that's just about it.

Dec. 14
Francis, a friend of mine, told me about his new job in a Language Center. I decided to check it out..and I had such a great time talking with the Korean kids! They simply can't believe that a Filipino could speak (somehow) in Korean. Because I enjoyed the company of the kids, I decided to work there during the Christams break...So that would mean there would be no x-mas vacation for me!!! But its okay, I know it would be a great experience! Aja!

Dec. 15. 12 pm.
The Oblation run was held....I was able to see it twice already. But just like the first time, the naked men, didn't even had an ample effect on me. I think they need to lift some weights once in a while..I mean...wouldn't it be better if the CHK majors would be the one to run naked...at least that would be a celebration of the beautiful form of mankind. I hope no APO member would ever get the chance to read this..but hey! why don't your brotherhood consider my advice....it would make your fraternity even prouder than you already are...

Dec. 15. 4:30 pm.
Jay and I were late for the assembly of Lantern Parade participants., Thanks to the very informative lecture of Mr. N.S.S. who actually top the bar last year at no. 9. He's a very intelligent person, to the point that he could tire you out just by speaking infront of you.. Oh well, he made me believe that I should be preparing myself more if I want to surpass the pressures of studying law. Anyways, I do appreciate his generosity that he actually took the time to share his knowledge about the history of England.
So, there...we arrived late as I have said before, but good enough that we were able to sign the attendance. Joining the Lantern parade was actually fun. Sometimes we did feel embarassed , but I guess that's normal. My mask, or heardress was similar to that of a flower girl, minus the hanging leaves at the side, which made it passed for a headress either of a fairy or Mother nature.
The fireworks display was fantastic and breath-taking. Hahaha...I guess they had a big budget for it.
That night, I was very tired, but nevertheless happy.

Dec. 16, 12 pm
Christmas part of ISSI.
The food was great.
I never knew how the bosses of ISSI could be so generous to give out A LOT of appliances, kitchenwares, etc. to other employees.
Thanks a lot!!

today, I'll go to SM to buy my "pamasko", the outfit that I would be wearing on Christmas eve. It's a tradition, you know....lol ^:^

Not your ordinary (attic) cat

Oppa!!!!

I just got back from my Korean class. Oh well, here I am again talking about something related to Korea. I never knew that I could be such a big fan of a foreign country. When I was in elementary, I literally thanked God for not making me a Chinese, Korean or Japanese. I pitied them because they couldn't speak English very well. Yes! I was under the spell and influence of our Western colonizers by then. hahaha...Then came the time I had met these group of Korean exchanged students back in 3rd year HS...all of a sudden, I came to appreciate the culture of our neighboring countries in Asia.
Of course, the Asian tv series that is very popular in our country would have something to do with this "inclination". I've just learned a while ago that Qtv ch. 11 is hsowing a Korean drama starring Lee Byong Won and Song Hye Kyo...I am (so) gonna program) our Tv later just to add that channel. Asian dramas have always been a good motivation for me to do something. (e.g. going home early right after school back then in HS).
oh well,.....that's just me!
Just a while ago, on my way up to the 3rd floor of Virata Hall, I encountered 2 Korean guys, both of them looked directly at me.....hahaha....I Wanna asked why..(oppa..we yo??? ^:^) but urghh..I didn't.....maybe next time! Aja!!

btw..just so you know, I currently like someone right now...Just a slight crush, I guess...hehehe!!!

How's life??

Life is still pretty much the same!
as always....^:^;

2nd sem starts today

hay!! I am partly happy now that I am about to learn new things again, and partly worried of the stress that my busy schedule brings me.
Just this morning, nagprerog ako sa PE, fortunately, I was accepted in Power Yoga! hehehe..yoga again..
then, I attended the 1st meeting of my eng22 class, my prof is "quite" old (according to her), actually she seem's nice, whenever I'm a little nervous I just remind myself that she is like my lola, and that she won't hurt me anyway. but honestly, I feel that she would be teaching us a lot of stuffs, good for us!
Later, I'll go to the gym again..hehehe
This is just the beginning, a busy smemester is still yet to unveil.

need to practice my korean skills later...mahirap nang makalimutan tomorrow, and we might be asked to introduce ourselves in Korean. Neverthelss, I am so excited to study Korean again!!

Quote for the day...^:^

"Believe that you can do it, under any circumstances. Because if you believe you can, then you really will. That belief just keeps you searching for the answers, then pretty soon you get it."
– Wally "Famous" Amos

Nothing much

Hey, this is the last week of my so-called sem break...Well, I wasn't really stuck at home, I am mostly at work and in the gym. Hahaha...
My friends are nowhere to be found...almost all of them are in their hometowns, while for the rest..uhm..I'm not really sure coz I haven't catched up with them lately.
So..that's pretty much it.. a busy, nevertheless boring semestral break. Anyways, at least I found out that I really couldn't afford a month long vacation...It will drive me crazy.

오늘

Well,what should I be writting here by now?
Uhm..life is pretty much the same...work..gym..jogging, mall, house, etc..
been preoccupied with nothing in particular...
i don't want the next sem to start yet..I know that I am bound to be busy again by that time..
However, I am lucky though...unlike my friends who are so bored at home, atleast I have something to be busy with...
I want to watch any Asian series now!! I hardly get to watch them lately..

Love this song...by Wax

3. 부탁해요

1. 그 사람을 부탁해요
나보다 더 사랑해줘요
보기에는 소심해보이지만
알고보면 괜찮은 남자예요

눈치가 없이 데이트할 때
친구들과 나올거예요
사랑보다 남자들 우정이
소중하다고 믿는 바보니까요

* 술을 많이 마셔도 속이 좋지 않아요
하도 예민해서 밤잠을 설치죠
밤에 전화할땐 먼저 말없이 끊더라도
화내지 말고 그냥 넘어가줘요

2. 드라마를 좋아하고
스포츠도 좋아해요
야한 여자 너무 싫어 하고
담배피는 여자 싫어하지요

절대 그 사람을 구속하지 말아요
그럴수록 그는 멀어질거예요
사랑한단 말도 너무 자주 표현하지 말아요
금방 싫증낼 수 있으니

**혹시 이런 내가 웃기지않나요
그렇게 잘 알면서 왜 헤어졌는지
그 사람을 사랑할땐 이해할수 없었던 일들이
헤어져보니 이젠 알 것 같아요

그 사람 외롭게 하지 말아요

Got this one from peyups.com..

Love Stories : Just another story
Once upon a time, there was a 15 year-old-girl who was deeply infatuated with a 21-year-old guy. They met one summer in a play, where the girl was one of the lead actors and the guy, the assistant director. Weeks before the show opened, the actor playing opposite the girl backed out and the guy volunteered to take his place. However, the director replaced the guy with another actor at the last minute. The girl was disappointed, to say the least
The guy had always been the girl's fantasy—an unattainable one at that. The guy was what girls would call a “catch”— he was charismatic, charming and he came from a de buena familia—so it was not surprising that girls swooned at his presence. And the guy loved girls almost as much as they loved him.
Unfortunately, the girl witnessed the guy switch from one girlfriend to the next— this week it was a reed-thin model, the next it was someone he met at a bar— just as if he were changing shirts.
The guy also somewhat made the girl feel she meant nothing to him but a kid sister, as if careful not to give her even a glimmer of hope. One time, the girl thought she overheard him say he would never go out with kids. Perhaps the guy intended those words to reach the girl’s ears, sensing her crush on him. Or perhaps the girl was just paranoid.
But when the guy was not playing the tough I'm-older-than-thou act, he was sweet to her. He saw to it that the girl was taken care of, and he provided her the most stimulating of conversations. At those times, she prayed he didn't see her as the kid. She thought he was very cute too.
She considered the times hanging out with him as one of her best. Occasionally they'd eat out (with the other theater people, of course), go to bars, or stay at the girl’s house until the wee hours of the morning, talking, goofing around, and filming silly commercials together— commercials directed by the guy and acted out by the girl and some of their friends.
One time, after filming at the girl’s place, they decided to take a dip at the pool at 3 a.m. The others didn’t care for swimming, so it was just the two of them—the girl and the guy— chatting the night away. They stayed submerged in water till dawn. In a way, the girl was satisfied with just that. But of course, a kiss wouldn't hurt.
When summer—and their play—ended, their days together came to an end as well. They rarely saw each other after that, which saddened the girl a lot. But what did she expect? A few months later, the girl threw a party at her place, as an excuse to see him. And come he did, towing his new girlfriend along. The girl never threw a party for his expense again.
Time came when the girl no longer clung to her fantasy, although she never forgot the guy. She knew she had to be realistic, so she moved on to boys her age. From time to time, the girl would bump into the guy—at the mall, at a club, at a party thrown by a common friend. When that happened, she would act cool, calm and collected, as if the sight of him didn't affect her at all. She could be a very good actress when she wanted to.
Two years later they met again. This time during the funeral of the guy's relative. The girl was 18 now, and the guy was 24. The girl was happy to see him, and quite surprised that the sight of him didn't set out butterflies in her stomach anymore. Time erases a lot of things—or does it really?
The girl noticed something different about the way the guy acted towards her that night, but she couldn't really put a finger on it. Before the girl left, the guy asked for her number. They were in contact regularly after that.
The guy would ask the girl almost everyday how she was doing. They'd joke about things, exchange stories and talk about old times again. Guy would sometimes flatter her using sugary words, and she would ride on with it, assuming nothing. One day, the guy surprised her with a Chinese quote. He would sometimes refer to the girl as Chinese because she resembles one, but since she wasn’t, she had one of her Chinese friends translate the quote.
"It means 'I love you,'" explained the girl's friend. To say the girl was startled was an understatement. But it did explain the way he was acting the past few weeks. He couldn't be serious, the girl thought. It was so sudden, so soon. It seemed that she got what she had always wanted, what she had always craved for. But why did she feel that familiar sinking sensation at the pit of her stomach? She recalled the guy’s long line of girlfriends during their theater days. That was not what she wanted to end up being— just one of those girls he’d get and discard quickly.
She couldn't bring to ask him about it. But she didn't have to because the next night he told her again, this time in plain English. She didn’t say anything. They never talked about it again.
The guy suddenly stopped contacting her. In a way, the girl was relieved. The guy was a past chapter in her book, as far as she was concerned. But deep down, she knew she still liked him. But she told herself it was better that way. She wanted none of the pain, none of the complications that went with liking him.
Soon, the girl heard the guy had a new girlfriend. She didn't feel a thing this time--no stinging, no churning of the stomach. He would contact her from time to time to say "What's up?" to which she would obligingly reply "I'm fine. You?”
Then a year later, after months without contact, the girl received a call from the guy.
Guy: You doing anything later?
Girl: I'm doing stuff for work. Why?
Guy: I want to go out. But not alone...
She gave it a long thought. She knew she wanted him, wanted him still. But what he could give her was not enough. She wanted what her fantasy promised her—the whole deal. She wanted him for keeps. But she knew he couldn’t give her that because he still hasn’t changed—he was the same person she knew at 15. She knew what she had to do, although she wished she could be weak and not say…
Girl: Sorry I can't. Still have a lot to do. I have a deadline soon. Rain check?
Guy: Sure.
Both girl and guy knew there was no rain check. The guy got the hint. Still they played along, talked a bit about their lives and reminisced about old times again, both aware it may be their last time to do so.
They haven’t spoken since.
*******
Once upon a time, there was a 15 year-old-girl who was deeply infatuated with a 21-year-old guy. They met in theater, where the girl played as one of the lead actors and the guy, the assistant director. The guy had always been the girl's fantasy--an unattainable one at that. And she was right. Because they were never together, and it seems they never will be. At 20, the girl moved on. It took her a long time, didn’t it?
Still, sometimes, the girl would find herself, like now, remembering those summer nights she spent with him four years ago: Their stimulating conversations, their swim at 3 a.m. and, most especially, their acting together. He could be a very good actor when he wanted to. Just like her.
Exactly like her.

In Hangul

제 이름 은 제시　임니다．　저 는 학생 입니다．UP 에서 공부해요．저 는 영어를공부해요. 저 는18 살 입니다. 운덩하다 는 저하 해요. 이 덩 건 도 저하해요.

가 끔, 텔레비전 을 봤아요. 텔레비전 을 보 면 기분이 좋아요. 한국 예서 가고십아요!! ^:^ 한국 남자 가 재미있어요!

finally...I was able to download the Global IME.(korean font)
감사합니다！！！
If you are not seeing the korean characters, I think you would also have to download the Global IME..but I doubt if you'll do that!
아녕히　가세요．

^:^ My tutee friend..hehehe

Eng 100 MHW ^:^

I am angry and dissapointed! After all the efforts we have exerted just for things to work out in this project, this is what we got? AN ACCUSATION THAT WE ARE GREEDY!!! Greed is when you take more and give less. We PROVIDED THE THINGS WE THOUGHT NECCESSARY, EXACTLY THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DISCUSSED IN OUR CLASS,(snacks, prizes, loot bags, story books.) The amount we have collected, a big part of which comes directly from our pockets, exceeds the amount we had expected. ANd if it was that point in time in which we have decided to provide the class with LUNCH, IT WAS NOT OUT OF GREED BUT OF IMPULSIVENESS. IT MIGHT BE A WRONG DECISION, but the words thrown directly infront of our faces was TOO HARSH. YOU just can't accuse us of being greedy, you were not there when we made that decision. You do not know our intentions and feelings on that time.
you SHOULD HAVE MADE IT CLEAR WHAT YOU REALLY WANTED! i THOUGHT providing the kids with snacks and freebies, teaching them lessons and preparing visual aids wre enough! IT might have been! BUt when the money exceeded more that what is necessary to provide those things, and we took it as a chance to provide a class lunch, you made things that we have done seem LACKING.
WE have different values! YOu can't expect every single person to be as generous as you are! and if they are not, YOU COULD NOT ACCUSE them of being greedy! WE HAVE ALREADY GIVEN THE THINGS THAT WE THOUGHT SHOULD BE PROVIDED, our generosity might be limited IN the perspective of saints. BUT IT WAS NOT GREED!
ONE tHING I've learned from you is..YOU REALLY JUST CAN'T PLEASE EVERYBODY, so might as well please yourself!

Thinkpiece no. 6

Animal Farm (the movie), an adaptation of George Orwell’s novel, is an attempt to revive the feeling of realization out of the apparent symbolisms of the characters and the flow of the story. It mocks the totalitarian system of governance, where absolute power is placed in the hands of a certain political leader. Also, it explores the realm of humanity that seeks power, however unruly and corrupt the course maybe.
During the initial part of the movie, Old Major, the supposed to be leader of the animals, presented a Utopian society, where the success of the animal’s revolution against human seems to be foreseeable. His thoughts are nonetheless idealistic, however he surely has the gift of tongue to make them sound seemingly bound on reality. I, for a certain point, actually did feel the anger in his voice and realized that it was a result of an enduring suppression and abuse. Old Major, seems to be a typical good leader. His ideals, if put into action, would not only benefit himself alone, but the rest of the animals, who willingly accepted his leadership.
During his speech, I feel that his beliefs have a parallel relationship with Marxism. He ought to remove man for it will cause the root of their hunger to be abolished. This would also entail that their fruit of labor would be rightfully placed in their hands. He could be an ideal revolutionary proletariat here. Of course, human, particularly Mr. Jones, would have to represent the capitalists. Just like in the real life scenario, the person who is in charged of them, for he benefits in the product of their labor, couldn’t care less for the welfare of his laborers. The foremost valuable thing for him, of course, could be nothing else but profit. Again, George Orwell and his counterparts in the movie industry, were able to infiltrate into the political-economic arena of human society.
As I have stated before, the movie also presented that part of human that would always want power placed in his hands. As the death of Old Major signaled the revolt of the animals, and upon its initial success, new leaders would have to step up. Napoleon at first work hand in hand with Snowball, in order to continue what Old Major has started, however because of the absolute power given to him, he was corrupted by the temptations brought by his complete authority over the animals. He collaborated with Squealer, his propagandist, in order to rule the whole farm as they wish, and bend the commandments in their favor. I believe that the movie presented a repulsive yet realistic type of a political leader, the type who do not keep the trust of his people and use his power in order to gain wealth and continuous supremacy.
The animals, at first where living in a pleasant atmosphere under the rule of Napoleon. They are cooperating with each other towards their goal of making the Animal Farm successful, even without the help of man. But when power got the better of him, the whole farm was placed in the hands of an exploitative and cunning master, just like the master that they ousted. Their naiveté were demonstrated at first, as they tolerate Napoleon’s impulsive decisions and actions even to their disadvantage. However, for some, Napoleon’s malevolence has reached a limit, and they either decide to leave the farm, or act against Napoleon’s will. Of course, both would put them in danger, yet the risks are proven to be worth taking. After a long time, Napoleon has no follower left for him to rule and with this the decay of his authority and the decrement of the whole farm was paid to be the price of his injustice.
Animal Farm, as a whole, warns us to be wary of the leaders in which hands we place power into. It is presenting a clear picture of what is doomed to happen if absolute authority is given at the wrong hands.

Hanguk ban ul Bogo shipda!

I miss my Korean class!
Hope they would offer Korean 12 nxt sem!

Our Korean class party

Thinkpieces

I constantly update my blog, so you might not find my thinkpieces 1 to 3 easily when u open my site. They are already in the archive that's why.
but for your convenience, here's the URL of my thinkpiece 1 n 2:

http://jesysmile.blogspot.com/2005_06_01_jesysmile_archive.html

and here's the uRL for the 3rd thinkpiece:
http://jesysmile.blogspot.com/2005/08/thinkpiece-no-3.html

thanks!

The Promises and Pitfalls of Democracy

Thinkpiece no. 5

Democracy, or “the rule of the people” would have been an ideal scenario which could nurture the intelligence and will of the people, if only the body which has been entrusted with power by the people would not pursue their individual will. Perhaps, I am saying so only in connection to the Philippine government. (It might sound silly, but I do not have any further knowledge of where the democratic form of government has led other countries.)
However, I am not going to frown upon the system only because of the people who run it. The system, just I have stated before provide a suitable ground for the development of critical thinking and vigor of the people. Where freedom of speech and thought is permitted, an individual is unbound to the dictates of the time, provided of course that social tyranny does not exist. If it is, which has always been the case, an individual may still feel free to deviate the norms and face the consequences of his actions.
Direct democracy and representative democracy both have their own sets of advantages and pitfalls. Direct democracy, which relies upon the direct participation of the citizens, creates, as I have stated before, a tolerant atmosphere for the pursuit of personal beliefs, interest and eventually excellence, at its greatest point. It creates a more responsible and politically-aware citizenry. The interests of the people would not be jeopardized in the hands of self-serving politicians. Legitimacy of rules is also well-observed since the people are the one who imposed such rules to themselves. Direct democracy is the sole pure form of democracy; however it is only practicable on a small community. A country with a large territory would not warrant a situation where the citizens could assemble to discuss important matters of the state.
Direct democracy, on the other hand, being an indirect form of democracy, is a more practicable form of governance. The people, who are naturally absorbed in their own endeavors, would have more time to attend to them since they have been lifted off the weight of decision-making. Often, the temporary custodians of power have been reared with sufficient education and ideally, they are more skilled in handling political affairs. This is where the pitfalls of representative democracy come in. The perils brought by a system of representation are always lurking around since the individual will of any human being might led him astray of the real obligation he must fulfill. The Philippine government would be no less a perfect exemplar for this scenario. All throughout the years, our politicians have been nothing but pursuer of things that would benefit their political career and their fortunes. Opposition and administration alike, have used democracy as an excuse to air out their grievances which would either save their asses from the fury of the people, or add up to the rage felt for their opponents.
Also, a persistent critique of democracy is the claim that it encourages the elected representatives to change the law without necessity, and in particular to pour forth a flood of new laws. Because the citizens are likely to be ignorant of the law, the law-making body may push for any policy that would only benefit them or any party, whether it be in the business or government sector. In contrast to this issue, democracies are also criticized by their slowness in decision-making. Again, slowness is one of the practices perfected by our politicians, especially on matters that would not cause an increase on their pork barrel.
The short-term focus of democracies is also among their pitfalls. The administration would usually last for four to six years, thus self-serving politicians, instead of passing unpopular bills with longer term benefits, would only resort to popular policies which, however, might only have short term benefits.
Another argument held against democracy is that it is so prone to be reduced to political instability. Since the people are free to disagree with the actions of the government, and if this resentment becomes too strong, the people can remove administration without changing the form of government. In regard with this matter, I feel that this sets forth advantages and disadvantages at the same time. It is rightful that in a form of government that is claiming to be a rule of the people, to have an opportunity for the masses to oust a leader if they deem him or her unfit for the position. However, this right must not be abused and put into practice on grounds which are not sufficient. The threats imposed by a call for change of administration through massive protests cause harm to the economy of a counrty. I need not say that PGMA obviously insists on this matter.
Just to sum things up, after all the pitfalls I have held against democracy, it is still the form of government that I mostly favor. I feel that I would have more problems with monarchy or aristocracy, or tyranny and oligarchy (but I don’t think there’s a country claiming that they employ the form of tyranny or oligarchy, is there? ). Again, democracy is an ideal and rightful form of government because the people or their representatives could be held accountable for their actions. I do hope that the Filipino nation would witness a real form of democracy not only during election times, but also during decision-making of the present administration where the voice of the people ought to be heard and considered. I might be being too idealistic here, what can I do, it's a free country anyway.

"Just don't give up on trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong."

– Ella Fitzgerald

Of Hope and (resisting) Trepidation

hey!!
I've been very busy lately...reading works of famous political thinkers, practicing transcriptions using the english phonetic alphabet, etc.

I cried last saturday night, but I guess no one knew about it...the reason: I was hurt by a certain realization in life..(don't want to ponder more about it!)

Last Thursday, I was saved from our exam in ENg 100, my prof decided to take a day-off..hehehe...joke! So we just went to the lib (nerds!) and chat(hahaha! I told you were far from being nerds!) We talked about our aspirations to become a lawyer..Melissa told me that she know someone who graduated Summa Cum Laude (in UPD) and did not pass the LAE. That's shocking! and it makes me dread more about entering the College of Law! Oh please!! I hope I'll pass!! If not...I don't exactly like my other options...I love this university so much that I don't want to study in other universities here in the Philippines...(a univ. in US, Korea, UK seems appealing though). Maybe the LAE would be the 2nd most important exam (if not the 1st) I would ever take in my entire life!

I would have to pray hard and be very hopeful..and yes, hardworking!! (plus try to acquire eloquence, critical and logical thinking, confidence, etc.)

If you want something hard enough, the universe would conspire for you to get it! (from The Alchemist)

Thinkpiece no. 4

On Elizabeth and Absolute Power

The movie, which retold the early years of the reign of Elizabeth I, was grand and emotional. It was aptly nourished with extravagant costumes and setting, which is a trend of productions relating to the Golden Age of England (Shakespeare in Love, for instance). The casts were also very much suitable for their roles. What I don’t really appreciate in this movie is its storyline. I feel that the real story behind it was so rich with important events that the writers had troubles in choosing what to highlight, or simply include in the movie. They were successful in presenting the character of Elizabeth I, but for the rest, their roles are not clearly established. I know that time is a limiting factor here. But I think that it would have been more helpful for people like me who are not really familiar with English history, if the script explored more the motivations behind the actions of Sir Francis Walshingham, Robert Dudley and the French and Spanish royalties. Was it only power that motivated them? Maybe I’m just not being simplistic and at the same time skeptical of the story the movie presented (since Hollywood has its own way of curving the truth for its pleasure).

Anyway, moving to the real business of this thinkpiece, absolute power was probably the theme of this movie, hence its tagline “Absolute power demands absolute loyalty”. To be more specific, I think the movie is concerned with the hardships and stakes of achieving absolute power. Being in the position of power, automatically bequeath one with numerous foes and a meager number of trustworthy friends. Man’s pursue of power is so strong that he would do anything just for it. Thus, if one is successful of attaining power, he has the grave responsibility of defending his throne against both his known and faceless adversaries. Elizabeth I was surely a perfect exemplar of this scenario. Considering that she was considered illegitimate at a young age and she is a protestant, her claim for the crown was apparently questioned and criticized both by the Catholic Church and other dominant figures of Europe. Fortunate enough, she had the courage of restating that she is the one in power and she will rule as she wishes. Plus she had the wisdom of figuring out who to trust and not.

The symbols used in the coronation of Elizabeth I were evident of her absolute power. At first, her absolute power seemed unclear to me, she was standing on shaky grounds and was surrounded with a council whose intentions are murky. But when she suggested the retirement of Sir William as her adviser and made him a Lord instead, it became evident that she was indeed in absolute power. This would soon be more established when she addressed the parliament regarding the uniformity issue of religions. In her exercise of power, it is unquestionable that she is crafting her decisions towards what she thinks would be beneficial for her people. Being both the leader of the state and the church, she was able to influence England in wholly.

The idea of absolute power is hard to grasp for someone like me who was raised in a state where power is never confined in a single body. For Elizabeth I, the political system during her time was on her side. Provided that the Church would be separated from the state, she would have a harder time dealing with the clergy’s moves and decisions which would be beneficial for the preservation of their power. The country would never be united because the people would have to abide with the policies of two different bodies, which often than not, would often be conflicting with each other. Her tolerance for Protestantism would never be appreciated by the Church, thus devout Catholics would always contest her decisions for the state. But luckily enough for her, she was powerful both in the state and the realms of religion, and her time of power would soon be known as the Golden Age.

Giving a leader absolute power seems too scary for he or she might abuse it. Assurance that the lives of the people would be better after a system of absolute power was implemented would be my sole condition to concur with such arrangement. However, assurance of anything seems to be out of the question. We would never be assured unless we subject ourselves to a situation that would test its outcomes. The possibilities of a having unified country sounds too pleasing but the stakes of giving someone absolute power are very high that we fear the idea alone.

Thinkpiece

My previous thinkpieces are already in the archive of my blog. Here's the URL so you won't have to spend extra time looking for them..
http://jesysmile.blogspot.com/2005_06_01_jesysmile_archive.html

My 3rd thinkpiece however could be found below.
thanks. Good day!

cherry blossoms

Someday, I'll be able to visit Korea, the most beautiful country for me.
^^ love their beautiful trees so much
love their culture, their fashion and of course the Korean stars.

my blog has a newlook..that's good.
might as well get one, uhm..maybe not now.

love this show!!!

dumb and careless (^^) hahaha...

Today, guess what ? I slipped in AS STeps.
of all the places..thank God! di ako nagtuloytuloy pababa! 1 step lang..hehehe
good thing, i have one of my classmates in Korean to help me, the incident would be more embarrasing if I was alone. Bec. if that would be the case, I can't laugh at myself, that would make me look more stupid.

Thinkpiece no. 3

Q: What should be the proper arrangement between church and state?

We are made to believe that the concerns of the church and the state are distinct from one another. The Church takes care of the morality and faith of its members while the state ensures adequate access of necessities in aim of attaining a good life for its people. However, the boundaries that should have been clear was shuddered by both parties as the pressing issues of society overlap with both of their affairs.

We won’t have to go far to cite an example for such incident, here in the Pearl of the Orient, the Catholic Church and even other religious institution would always have something to say in regards to the political issues that are sensational as of the time being. Unsurprisingly though, our politicians would always clamor for the support of the major religious institutions of our country come election time. As a result, they would always have to respect and give consideration to the stands of the Catholic Church (or any religious institution, atypical however) in performing their legislative functions. For instance, artificial contraception was always opposed by the Catholic Church, thus the government could not successfully advocate it, which of course is among the reasons why the Philippines is overpopulated.

I would want to answer the inquiry of proper arrangement between the Church and state in the Philippine scenario alone, the extent of my knowledge could only reach that far and besides what I ought to think regarding this matter may not be effective in other countries.

Tracing from our history, we could see that the influence of the Church has always been a factor in the governance of our leaders. The Spanish colonization period, where the different religious orders are almost in full control of the affairs in our country, is the most evident conjunction of the Church and the government. Given this situation, it won’t be surprising that the members of the Catholic Church are vocal with their political and social views.

In my opinion, the Church must not meddle with the affairs of the state if they are doing so only for their own interests. However, if they are advocating the true interest of the people and the government is no longer considering the welfare of the majority, then they could serve as means of voicing out the sentiments of the people, especially if moral issues are involved.

Let us consider how politically active members of the Catholic Church are right now. Archbishop Oscar Cruz, (I was surprised to see that he has a blog: http://ovc.blogspot.com/) for instance, swerved from the usual religious affairs of his diocese to stand up against the immediate family of the president in aim of revealing the influential people behind Jueteng. Fr. Robert Reyes, is popular for his hunger strike as a way of beseeching the president to resign, of course among other priests and bishops. On the other hand, the present administration was relieved when the CBCP did not asked for PGMA’s resignation.

If the morality is really the issue, then the Church are held by duty to air out their opinions and provide ample ways to solve the problem. However in doing so, they must be careful so as not to appear as if the are imposing their views to their members, which in some sense, might have a political effect. It would be ideal if they stay true to their mission and duty, which is bringing the people closer to God and His way of life. Other than this, the Church has no business in regards to politics, unless, as I have stated before, the welfare of the people is at stake, and the government is no longer following constitutional processes and serving for the good of the people.

Today we ask ourselves, “As Bishops what can we offer to our people? Can we provide some clarity and guidance in the present confusing situation?” We can only answer these questions from who are. We are not politicians who are to provide a political blueprint to solve political problems. Rather we are Bishops called by the Lord to shepherd the people in the light of faith. With Pope Benedict XVI we do not believe in the “intrusion into politics on the part of the hierarchy.” But we are to interpret human activities such as economics and politics from the moral and religious point of view, from the point of view of the Gospel of Jesus and of the Kingdom of God. We are to provide moral and religious guidance to our people. This is what we offer in the present crisis. Not to do this would be an abdication of our duty.

From Restoring trust: A Plea for moral Values in Phil.Politics

How to stay young (acdg.to an email I've recently received)

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down. (Keep this In mind if you are one of those grouches;)
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain get idle."An idle mind is the devil's workshop."And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and Lots of time with HIM/HER.
6. The tears happen.Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with you your entirelife, is yourself. LIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you lovewhether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health.If it is good, preserve it.I f it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

A taste of the "real" world

While riding in a ever- reliable IKOT jeep to go to ISSI, a friend of mine asked me why do I need to work? Is it required? huh.. actually, I never fail to came up with answers that would make working look like its so much fun. (or in times of exhaustion, make it look so difficult that I could derive pride for actually subjecting myself into it.) But right this very moment, she has actually left me in deep thought.
Why do I work while studying in a university that challenges (or torture) students with high academic pressure? Why am I making things tougher that it should be? You might think I'm nuts asking myself these questions while in fact, working has been a part of my life eversince I was in 3rd year highschool, though I used to work only every summer in highschool.
To answer the questions that I have imposed on myself, I work because 1. I like earning my own money. (I don't ask for money from my parents just to buy clothes, cellphone, etc.) 2. I am no longer used to long vacations so I easily get bored at home. (a sign that I might be a workaholic in the near future). 3. I don't eat a lot at work. (really, this is one of the major reasons why I always have a summer job!) 4. I AM LEARNING A LOT FROM MY WORKING EXPERIENCES, things that a fresh college graduate may not know, I would like to believe that I have enough knowledge of it already.
5. IT gives me a sense of identity. Jesy..always the working girl, the student assistant since who knows when.
So, even if I AM VERY BUSY RIGHT NOW, I still feel that working while studying is worth giving a try.

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony."
– Mahatma Gandhi

"No pessimist ever discovered the secret of the stars or sailed an uncharted land, or opened a new doorway for the human spirit."
– Helen Keller

Losing someone

July 9, 2005
Around 2 am: I woke up bcoz of the loud voice coming from outside. It was my uncle calling my grandmother. I immediately felt nervous as I realized that something bad could have happened to my cousin. But it took a while before my grandmom responded to the call, so I dismissed the idea that something was wrong. Then when my mom came out and asked my uncle what happened. My gut reaction was affirmed.
We immediately went to the hospital thinking that my cousin is still alive. We were not told that she already passed away because my grandmom might breakdown. When we arrived at the hospital, we went straight ahead to an area of the emergency room. I saw my cousins body lying in a bed. I thought she was just unconcious. My aunt said otherwise.
It was extremely shocking, for someone who just happily spent a day in school that Friday, to be gone as the new day approaches.
It was so difficult and painful to believe in.


But I know we have to accept it.
For my cousin, who never failed to praise me for my achievements in life and whose generosity I truly admire, is now an angel.

I will miss you, Camille.

Hey, it's been a while!

I never thought I would not be exploring the net for more than a week.
Been sad and busy.
I missed blogging a lot.

Thinkpiece no. 2

I posted this last June 27, I thought that it was due on that day so I crammed and came up with this thinkpiece. I am posting it again, so that you won't have to scroll along my blog just to find it.

Greek Genius, Character and Way of Life
Q: What are the legacies of the Greeks?

The Greeks have contributed a lot to human civilization that they are often the topic of discussions and inquiries among scholars. Questions on how such a relative handful of people could make arts and literature, politics and other domains flourish are of great interest to those who are studying Ancient Western civilization.

It amazes me that such a group of people could produce good calibers of political thinkers, writers, dramatists, and artists. I have learned in class that such occurrence was made possible by the availability of services provided by the laborers. Fair enough, I guess. It is apparent that one could devote his or her time in practicing his or her field of interest if he is exempted in doing household chores.

It is unmistakable that the Greeks have left a lot of legacies for the enrichment of human life, both as an individual and as a member of a state. Among all their important contributions, I would have to say that democracy is the best gift they have delivered in this world. It would be adequate to call Athens the “birthplace of democracy” for it was successful in practicing the beliefs of a democratic state. Assemblies are often held to seek the interest of the public before the government makes a decision. What I deeply appreciate in the way they practice democracy, which is seemingly non-existent in the Philippine context, is that every citizen was eligible to attend the assemblies and they were also encouraged to speak up. Through this system, the voice of the people could really be heard and not only those of the ruling class.

Having an interest in literature, I consider the legacies of the Greeks in that field as valuable as their other counterparts. All Western literary forms, both prose and verse, were established and brought to a high degree of perfection by the Ancient Greeks. Their literature survived the catastrophes of late antiquity and made possible the rebirth of learning and appreciation of tradition and art. Greeks are often mentioned in the development of drama, tragedy and comedy. However, I feel that their mythology is of greater popularity. Greek mythology provides its readers with a mystifying adventure of what is deemed unreal in the present world. It is always fun to encounter characters whose divine powers is always coupled with human flaws and on the menacing side, their own creatures of the dark would always challenge one’s imagination.

The way they value education and the things derived out of this value could also be considered one of the legacies of the Greeks. Their flourishing ideas in politics, science, philosophy and the arts were also incorporated in the quality of education that they provided for the citizens especially the youth. I think that through the outstanding teachers tat they were blessed with like Plato and Aristotle, their system of education served as a good model to lay the foundation of one’s educational structure.

It is no doubt that the legacies the Greek has imparted to the humankind go beyond the knowledge they have contributed in science and medicine, the relevant political ideas and philosophies that transcend time, or the pieces of art and literature that they have created. The Greeks are also successful in showing how far a man could develop his potentials, provided that he has a good environment and passion and personal motivation. People of other lineage would be happy enough to derive inspiration from the lives of all the popular thinkers and artists that Greek civilization has produced.

Urggh! I miss this show!!!

I need to watch it again...it reminds me that I do REALLY want to be a lawyer.

Not the One

I waltzed around you Seven times Only to become A melody you never sang I'm not the one Oh I'm not the one"----Not The One, Collective Soul

OH no!!

I want to ask you what happened? R u okay?
It seems that u could still put humor to such unfortunate incident, so from that, I would conclude that u'll be back on track soon.
Wishful thinking, I guess...but I pervently wish that I was the one at your side when you needed help and confort.

I came across one site that analyze names and birthdays.
Here is teh result that I've got after I have entered my full name.

There are 18 letters in your name.Those 18 letters total to 48There are 9 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 3
The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.
The expression or destiny for #3:An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.
The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.
Your Soul Urge number is: 8
A Soul Urge number of 8 means: With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flare for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.
Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.
The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.
Your Inner Dream number is: 5
An Inner Dream number of 5 means: You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

I came to realize...

Last night, while browsing the pages of my blog, I noticed that nothing (thats not true, one post was about him..the new "him" this time) seem to tell how I first saw him, started to like him, and never saw him again.(teeny bopper stuffs like that..)
Well, I'm hesitant. It feels that I have no right to tell stories that would involve him. (i'm getting iritated now...typing the word "him" for the nth time)
But what the heck??! He won't be able to come across this blog (May God forbids!) so i'm writting this one now..
When I first saw him, it was inevitable for me to think that he is the "boastful" type.. but he's actually very interesting....but I dissed the idea since he's out of my league.
Then after several weeks, it was untimely to find myself telling my bestfriend that I think I have a crush on him. Then I was surprised that during the next day, all of a sudden, without THEM knowing that I am starting to like him..THEY started(having fun) teasing me because of an honest mistake that he have unconsciously done...
I was stupid to be carried out by the situation and unsurprisingly, I knew that there's no turning back...I like him already (and it seemed that my brain finally declared it)..
well, thats the end of the story.
saw him in TV once, got shocked...
then never saw him again...
all along I knew that nothing would happen...
still like him though...
**THEM pertains to a group of people whom I had fun being with

In high spirits...

This class pic was taken up on the
night of our Seniors' prom last Feb. 2004, the same night I first knew that I passed in UP.(so more reasons for me to celebrate during that evening) Everything was great and I had so much fun.

Where am I in the pic? uhm..im the 4the person (from the left) standing at the back.

Missing you..

Wow, this is my first time to post a picture here.(I didn'tknew how before.)
This pic was taken last March 2004..Quite some time ago, I guess. It was the day of our graduation in CAT and right after the short ceremony, we went straight ahead to the mall just to hang out. I also remeber the fight betweem JJ and Jacques bec. JJ was teasing Jacques of how she looked in the pic.
anyways...they were back to being friends again after one or two days I think.
If you're wondering, I'm the one in stripes near the MTV logo. Joy, my best friend is the one in orange. JJ in blue, Maddy in red n yellow and Jacques in white. They are my highschool friends.
(I miss you guys..hope we could see each other soon!)

Thankful..

There are a lot of things I should be thankful about for this day. First,its seems that I did well in my exams in Korean and Env Sci. I have been dreading for that exam in Env Sci...my friends told me last summer how difficult Dr. *****'s exams are. But I was surprised to see that he was only asking us to define around 15 terms and explain 4 cycles. Since, I reviewed well, I was able to answer the exam (not that fast though, I was actually the last person to submit my paper, but thats nothing new)and hopefully I'll get a decent score.
then my prof in Kom1 didn't arrive so our report was rescheduled for next meeting..I'm not really thrilled about it, though its good that I'll be having more time to prepare.
During our report in Soc sci 2, I think I look kinda stupid in front of the whole class..I was reading the script because I was not able to memorize it..(thanks to my busy schedule)
I was actually complaining yesterday about how hectic this day would be: exam in Korean and in Env. sci, report in kom 1 and soc sci2, and of course office work. but now that this day is coming to an end, I'm thankful that I was able to handle it, surprisingly things have not been that stressful.

Greek Genius, Character and Way of Life

Thinkpiece no. 2

Q: What are the legacies of the Greeks?
The Greeks have contributed a lot to human civilization that they are often the topic of discussions and inquiries among scholars. Questions on how such a relative handful of people could make arts and literature, politics and other domains flourish are of great interest to those who are studying Ancient Western civilization.
It amazes me that such a group of people could produce good calibers of political thinkers, writers, dramatists, and artists. I have learned in class that such occurrence was made possible by the availability of services provided by the laborers. Fair enough, I guess. It is apparent that one could devote his or her time in practicing his or her field of interest if he is exempted in doing household chores.
It is unmistakable that the Greeks have left a lot of legacies for the enrichment of human life, both as an individual and as a member of a state. Among all their important contributions, I would have to say that democracy is the best gift they have delivered in this world. It would be adequate to call Athens the “birthplace of democracy” for it was successful in practicing the beliefs of a democratic state. Assemblies are often held to seek the interest of the public before the government makes a decision. What I deeply appreciate in the way they practice democracy, which is seemingly non-existent in the Philippine context, is that every citizen was eligible to attend the assemblies and they were also encouraged to speak up. Through this system, the voice of the people could really be heard and not only those of the ruling class.
Having an interest in literature, I consider the legacies of the Greeks in that field as valuable as their other counterparts. All Western literary forms, both prose and verse, were established and brought to a high degree of perfection by the Ancient Greeks. Their literature survived the catastrophes of late antiquity and made possible the rebirth of learning and appreciation of tradition and art. Greeks are often mentioned in the development of drama, tragedy and comedy. However, I feel that their mythology is of greater popularity. Greek mythology provides its readers with a mystifying adventure of what is deemed unreal in the present world. It is always fun to encounter characters whose divine powers is always coupled with human flaws and on the menacing side, their own creatures of the dark would always challenge one’s imagination.
The way they value education and the things derived out of this value could also be considered one of the legacies of the Greeks. Their flourishing ideas in politics, science, philosophy and the arts were also incorporated in the quality of education that they provided for the citizens especially the youth. I think that through the outstanding teachers tat they were blessed with like Plato and Aristotle, their system of education served as a good model to lay the foundation of one’s educational structure.
It is no doubt that the legacies the Greek has imparted to the humankind go beyond the knowledge they have contributed in science and medicine, the relevant political ideas and philosophies that transcend time, or the pieces of art and literature that they have created. The Greeks are also successful in showing how far a man could develop his potentials, provided that he has a good environment and passion and personal motivation. People of other lineage would be happy enough to derive inspiration from the lives of all the popular thinkers and artists that Greek civilization has produced.

Poverty and the Filipinos

THINKPIECE NO.1
Q: What is the most political, social or econmic issue/problem for you?
Poverty is still the biggest problem the Filipino people are facing these days. Poverty in this sense, is the continuous deterioration of the quality of life of the people, the problem of unemployment, and the unfair increase in prices of commodities while the laborer's salary remain inadequate. It is apparent that this economic problem is not new in the Philippine scenario. The Filipinos have always been confronted with different faces of poverty, and their optimistic nature often serves as a catalyst for them to endure such crisis. However, there are times that one's optimism is no longer enough to tolerate one's hunger and affliction. In this case, the people are becoming more critical with the way the government addresses the problems of the masses, which often leaves them with a feeling of disappointment and betrayal.
According to Pulse Asia's November 2002 Ulat ng Bayan Survey, the public responded that national economic re-covery, the great poverty of many Filipinos, the high prices of basic necessities and the low pay of workers are the most pressing economic problems of the country. Political and public safety concerns like peace in the country, government graft and corruption, widespread criminality and facing terrorism generally take a secondary position relative to the people's most urgent economic concerns. I am among them in believing that poverty is greatly felt in the daily lives of the Filipinos that its solution must be prioritized. However, any solution requires a definite course of action that would eradicate graft and corruption, a problem belonging to their secondary concerns. So with this, the government instead of dealing with the effects of poverty alone must dig deeper to the implicit causes of the problem. From what I am seeing right now, the government could only provide short-term remedy against poverty like cheaper goods sold in roaming vehicles which carries the name of the president, while targeting the causes that would bring a much longer effect on the lives of the people are often left out, intentionally or not. For instance, passing land reforms that would eventually distribute land ownership for our farmers would be more beneficial than a momentary watch on the prices of goods. Moreover, corruption has always been pointed out to be one of the causes why Filipinos never seem to get out of the rut of financial crisis. But the present administration seem to have poor actions against graft and corruption and at worst, the president and her close relatives are facing numerous scandals involving it.
It is very ironic that Filipino people are poor while in fact the Philippines are blessed with rich natural resources. The problem here lies in the distribution of these resources. Only a few could access the means that the Pearl of the Orient provide and in effect, these elite group of people monopolizes the wealth coming from our natural resources. Their control in our country is not limited in the economic aspect; they are also a dominant force in the political arena. Given this situation, vested personal interests are often associated with the government's decision making. Instead of being pro-poor, the government is passing bills that are considered burden to the people's lives. The bill pertaining to the VAT was easily passed while those concerning an increase in wage or salary would often undergo a slow paced process before it is granted.
Parallel to the paradox of poverty and the richness of our country in natural resources, is the absurdity that Filipinos are poor while we are basically considered to be talented and hardworking. As a result of the deteriorating quality of life of the people, education is often placed into second importance. It is conceivable that breadwinners would allot a bigger portion of one's salary for food and other necessary expenses like water and electricity. Because of this, education becomes more of a privilege rather than a right. The vast financial crisis is limiting the chances of the Filipinos to develop their potentials. Though possible, it would be harder for a Filipino to breakaway from all the limitations his economic status sets for him.
So what could be done to alleviate this pressing economic problem of the Filipinos? Honestly, I could not think of solutions that are not yet conceived by economists and other concerned people. The president have delivered her 10-point agenda last year. Her promises really are pleasant to the ear, however distrust still reigns on my mind. The government may present hundreds of poverty alleviation techniques but the most difficult part remains unpromising, the continual implementation of such methods.
Alleviating poverty in our country is a very arduous task. It would require a very long period of time before our economy could recover. Thus, it should not be of second priority to our government officials, for it is still the biggest burden affecting the lives of the Filipino people. Definite actions addressing poverty should start NOW.

Anyong Haseyo!

I really am enjoying my korean class. However, I couldn't deny that it is quite difficult to memorize the basic parts of a conversation. Well, i guess I should practice more everyday, hahaha..its like I'm talking to myself whenever I practice at home.
ok..thats all for now...

Unusual as it may seem....

Don't be surprised if you'll be seeing here several posts concerning political and other national issues, and things that are related to political philosophy and social science...
Those posts are my thinkpieces in Soc Sci2..
Well, if you really are interested in my opinion, feel free to read or even react.

Classes starts tomorrow..

Yes, school would be opening again tomorrow, I'm not sure if I am excited. maybe..
A while ago, i was browsing the widely abused pages of friendster, and ..I came along his account..and now, I like him so much again..though I also came to realize how distant we are from each other; age, skills, and a lot more differences..
have u ever felt this way? U wish u were older and more mature? this is making me sick...

Finally!!

After more than 4 years, I could now say that I am finally over him.

No way!!!

God! Why am I allowing this to happen, this is such a familiar feeling, though this time, i feel that it is different. Oh! I don't really know! my thougths our spinning around my head and I could not discern them.
I can't fall for him!!!!No way!!!!
Give me a few days, and I'll successfully convinced my self that this is just a mere infatuation...as they say, mind over matter(or should I say heart instead?)

U know what?

U know what****? i like you..somehow, I really do...

Strike Three...

I am hooked to Metor Garden again..It may sound absurd but I still swoon over their story and several "kilig" scenes...
(((Wo ming bai..wo yao de ai...wei ba wo chong wai hai..blah..blah..ni yao de ai..)))
Now, im getting super corny..

2 B U's Summer lovin'

I've spent about an hour reading the feature of Phil. daily Inquirer's 2bu section today. They collected love stories from the readers, letters, scrapbooks and other form of expressing love, and published the good and touching ones in today's issue.
If u really know me, U would definitely assume that I am the type of person who would excitedly read such stories. And yes, I was really glad that I had taken the time to check today's PDI issue.
I think the senders are lucky that they have/had an experience that they could share with the public...I was slighly envious, if I should say..I caught myself thinking when would be my time to find that someone whom I could passionately write about, and actually have the courage to have our story publish in newsprint.Wishful thinking?? maybe no....
bcoz all along, I know I had an experience which would somehow fit along the romantic stories I have read...only this time, it wasn't that romantic at all..(apparently, unrequited love isn't really that romantic)
But hey, one of the articles included was also about an unrequited love..so might as well consider my story being published,if only it's not too late..
I hate this a lot..thinking that there is a story that happened between me and Eu***. When all this time, it was only me that is creating our story..much worse, I was creating it only in my mind or in my dreams(though, I don't really dream of him when I'm asleep..maybe I did but only once..)
what is clear to me is that..the story of my life would never ever be complete without his name being stated on it..

Ouch!

my front tooth hurts like hell..
I just went to the dentist yesterday, had my 3 teeth filled (oh, i don't know how to say the process "pasta" in english!)and here i am..still hurting...ouch...
I don't know what's up with me?
I'll go to the dentist again...
*this is an unusual blog entry...gross..

This Summer....

My summer is starting to be a very busy one, but nonetheless, it is also getting quite interesting. As of the moment, I am in the process of self-discovery and self-creation, as my socio class insists. But really, my summer experiences had opened my eyes to several things. First, my socio class under *erry has affected my sometimes troubled mind...there are times that it makes me more confuse of the things that I believe in..I had never imagined having an atheist professor..I've heard that atheist profs actually exist in UP..but I never expected that I would encounter one.Well, I am no longer concerned about that..unlike the first few meetings we had, I was so engrossed on his opinions about the none-existence of a Higher Being..and so on...
Now, I am starting to appreciate his lessons..and the way he approach the subject matter, much more, the way he delivers his opinions. He actually unconciously encourages me to read our Socio book which was written by R. David..and reading it has been a very informative and enjoyable activity.
Moving aside, I no longer hate my PE prof..maybe I still don't like him very much but..yah..my grudge for him has already faded...Thanks to the fact that I am losing weight bec. of his class. Our weight training program has been extremly challengiing and difficult but I think it would be rewarding in the end (i hope so) I never thought that I could do 300 situps a day...God! thats a lot!hehehe..I am developing the muscles around my body especially my biceps...oh, how I wish my triceps would develop more..
By the way, I find a guy (from the earlier Wt. training class) very cute and interesting..Damn..during the first meeting of our class..he was supposed to be enlisted in my section..but our prof offerd slots for the earlier section so he enlisted on it..hehehe..sayang..He should have been my classmate..hehehe..But its ok..bcoz I usually lost interest on a cute guy if he becomes my classmate...so mas ok na di na lang.. Ewan ko na lng pag naging classmate ko si osb****..

These past few days...

Hey, its been a while since I last posted a blog entry here in my blog. For some reasons, I didn't feel writting at all..
I'm busy these days in my summer job, trying to research on certain Phil. Industries that have a potential in exports. I find my job quite enjoyable now, since i developed a friendship with my co-SAs.
I also jog every other day..well, I'm trying to lose some pounds..hehehe
What else? uhmmm.. I received my classcards this morning, n I was able to get an average which would qualify me to be a CS..thank God!
I also received my 2nd paycheck..hehehe
Last night, i dreamt of ******. I was surprised by that dream, it brought back my crush on him, which is kind of fading since I am not able to see him for a long time.I hope I'll see tomorrow in the enrollment for summer classes.
I'm actually excited to attend my summer classes..I hope I could learn a lot out of the soiciology class that I will take. Plus, I also wish to develop firmer muscles in my PE class which is Weight Training.
Last time I was reading the articles in peyups.com, I came across an article which is about the current trend of blogging. the one who wrote that article said that almost every Filipino bloggers are so concerned in relating stories about themselves, plus their angst, to other people. It ended quite strong, saying that bloggers will always fall to the condition of being anonymous. Well, there are actually some points that I agree to. I agree that people shouldn't express senseless angst in their blogs, instead they should turn their angsts to a more sensitive and relevant approach or observation of what's going on around them. But in overall, I think the article is too unrealistic since it calls for a more socially concerned bloggers. It is obvious that when we write in our blogs, we think of ourselves, and maybe some people that affect us.It is quite weird for someone to be excited in updating his/her entries with political and social issues. I know that the author understands the fact that blogs are such a hit nowadays bcoz of the relief that it brings people through the possibility of self-expression. No matter how mundane it may seem, we really do get a good feeling out of seeing our own words in an internet site.

En francaise

Salut!! Ca va bien??
moi, je ne sais pas...
Qu'est-ce que tu fais cette ete?
Moi, je traivaille et j'attends mon lecons pour cette ete.
Bonne ete...
A tout a l'heure..

March 28- April 2, 2005

well, I spent the whole day of March 28 in Grotto vista, celebrating my friend's bday..it was such a nice day, and I felt so good on that particular outing. We enjoyed the pool and of course, the food.I am really happy whenever i'm with my friends..its like i could be myself, talk about anything I want to, laugh, joke around, etc.. If any of my friends got the chance to read this blog entry, let me thank you for accepting who I really am..and making my life a lot happier.
March 29: I had an exam in French 11, it was okay, although it was more difficult than our exams in French 10.. but I think I did well.. Thank God!
MArch 30: I worked for almost the whole day, figuring out what products in the garment industry are inceasing in exports..hehehe..that's my new task now, im in charged in comparing the foreign trade statistics of the Garment industry for the past 10 yrs. I think this task is quite ok, actually I'm learning quite a no. of things from this job..
March 31: I got my paycheck..thank God!!
April 1: I attended my cousin's graduation, then we had a small celebration at their house. The foods are so great, and I was so full that I no longer ate my dinner for that day.we hang around in my cousin's room, making use of her new mp3, playing games, watching a movie, etc.
April 2: After eating so much last April 1, I decided its time to put my jogging plans into action..hehehe.. So I went jogging for around 1 and a half hours in the Track Oval of UP.It was so much fun..I really like the ambience plus the fact that its not really humid at all bec. of the big trees around.. on mon, I'm planning to go jogging again..
April 3: I checked the enlistment results for this summer, Yes!!! I was enlisted in Socio n PE 2(wt. training. Actually,I find my sched very good.Now, my summer plans seem to be a lot clearer.

March 26, 2005

This is my first time to spend my HOly Saturday studying for an exam and making a paper..plus chatting in YM, of course. Should I feel guilty?
Well, yesterday, We went to church and I stood up at the back for 2 hours bcoz there are no more seats available..and its a tradition in our church to walk along the aisle in your knees..and yes, I did it. I know that is nothing compared to the pain that Jesus felt in the cross.
Then, last night, I was so sad..and I cried myself to sleep bcoz my parents are blaming me for something which I don't like to discuss here.. I think they are unfair, I always try my best to be a good kid..and that is what I get??
But I'm okay now..still a little sad about what happened yesterday, and I don't want to talk to them right now..sorry.
ok bye

March 26, 2005

This is my first time to spend my HOly Saturday studying for an exam and making a paper..plus chatting in YM, of course. Should I feel guilty?
Well, yesterday, We went to church and I stood up at the back for 2 hours bcoz there are no more seats available..and its a tradition in our church to walk along the aisle in your knees..and yes, I did it. I know that is nothing compared to the pain that Jesus felt in the cross.
Then, last night, I was so sad..and I cried myself to sleep bcoz my parents are blaming me for something which I don't like to discuss here.. I think they are unfair, I always try my best to be a good kid..and that is what I get??
But I'm okay now..still a little sad about what happened yesterday, and I don't want to talk to them right now..sorry.
ok bye

March 22, 2005 Tuesday

Today is the last day of classes in UP diliman... FINALLY!!
But I can't really say that I'm too eager about this summer vacation..It's just that I feel that I waited for this vacation for so long..and now that it's almost here..I no longer like it.. kc I'll miss ****** ( well, I to be more correct, I should say; I won't be able to see ******)bkit kc this last few days ko lang sya talaga nagustuhan...wrong timing..
Well, this is quite a special day. Our presentation in French 11 turns out to be okay despite the fact that we are quite unprepared. After class, I saw Wap along the corridors of AS and then we talked about our recent lives..hehehe. Its fun to talk to her again, and I really did enjoy her company.. We were on a constant "trip". We just did what we feel like doing and its kinda crazy...I laughed a lot..Then we decided to stroll around the campus to have a chance to see ******. We saw him in FC..actually we are talking about choices of paths/ directions to take during that time.. Sabi ko sa kanya "Dito na lang tayo..malay mo dito ko sya makikita.. oh di serendipity.." Then after a few seconds.. he appeared near the intersection and walked infront of us.. I was surprised..aand as corny as it may sound, my heart did beat faster..

Fervent wish

I am beginning to like this guy from my school..He's taking up Psych..and he is so cute...he looks like as if he has just stepped out of an anime or any asian drama...
But the 2nd sem is ending too soon..I hope he'll take up summer classes...I fervently wish that we would be classmates in any subject nxt sem or this summer!!Please!!!

Such a happy day...

Hello, it's been a while. My week has been so hectic that I hardly could open my blog. Anyways, today...Ive finished quite a no. of tasks already like my exam in Bio and Eng 11. I have dread my Bio exam sio much that's why I put too much hardwork in studying for it. In my assessment, I think I will pass that exam..thank God!!
I hope i'll get a pretty good grade in Eng 11..my exams are quite high, my mistakes would only sum up around 8, i guess. And I've worked very hard for my final paper...i just don't know if my hard work will comply with my prof's standards.Good luck!!
Ang saya talaga ng araw na ito.. Yesterday..I was quite confused what to do this summer. I went last Tuesday to SSS.. to inquire about the summer job that they are opening for students. On that day, things were okay, and it seemed that i have a chance to work there. But yesterday, I asked my bestfriend to call their office and ask if they have an age requirement for the job..Aparently, they are requiring the applicants to be atleast in 3rd or 4th yr. college. And I'm obviously not.. So..sorry na lang ako..maybe pag 3rd year na ako.
Then...we opted to ask the Guidance Office of our former Highschool if they are still accepting applicants for student assistants. luckily, they are..so we decided that we will meet today to pass our resumes.
JOy arrived very late. I waited for her for 30 minutes in French Baker..I got bored so I bought a cone of ice cream..and I decided to go home..then I just saw her and she apologized..
I told her that i am no longer planning to work in SSA..bec. I'll just stay on my job in UP..while also taking up summer classes.She said she understands..(SYEMPRE, si joy pa eh super bait non)
So now,,,after so much pondering. i finally have a plan this summer..I think I'm lucky bec. I have a chance to work while taking PE classes and one GE, perhaps. I still don't know what GE subject I would take..Uhm..cguro Socio or Film, if ever...pra nood lang ako ng nood ng pelikula..gusto ko din kc maging Film critic..hehehe.
OK..gotta go..Au revoir..

March 10, 2005 Thursday

Hello!! Its been a while.. ive been busy these previus days..and I still am..
Ive just visited the blogs of my former classmates..at ang gaganda ng blogs nila..sana maupdate ko din tong blog ko n magkaroon to ng tag board, links, etc..whatever u call such things.. di kc ako magaling sa mga ganitong bagay.
Yesterday, I didn't go to work because I had a fever last Tuesday night, and I felt bad when I woke up yesterday morning..but thank God, I was able to recover fast.. I keep on saying.. Lord, wag naman po ngayon ako magkakasakit..ang dami kong kailangang tapusin..at yun nga..the Lord listened to my prayer..
well, I spent almost half of the day (yesterday) studying for my Bio exam..Im pressured kc un prof ko super hirap magpaexam..tipong cge, aralin mo lahat ng bio books and habang sinasagutan mo ung exam di mo alam kung saan mo kukunin un isasagot mo dun...
Then i studied my report in Kas 2..its about the present issue in sri Lanka about the Tamil seperatism... since kailangan..nagkaroon na rin ako ng concern sa issue na iyon.. pero naturally i'll say "As if I care...." Up to now..Im still trying to figure out the real sitaution in Sri Lanka..might as well go there..but nah!!thats way too impossible, and unnecessary, if I should say.
alors, mon "crush"(sorry, i dont know the french word 4 this) a envoie sms... Je suis contente...hehehe...mais, il a peux credits...

Today, I was very late for my eng 11 class...and they are already discussing something when I arrived( lagi naman eh!!) But its ok..we discussed some haikus today... I think its only in this class that Ive learned the real meaning and essence of haikus... Then, we are given a new task to analyze the poem 'Daddy' by Sylvia Plath.. that would be for our exam on next thurs.Another task has come my way...hay!!!cge..lang..matatapos ko din kayo..
But seriously, given the chance this summer..i'll read some literary classics..like Shakespeare's play, novels of Sylvia Plath, James Joyce,V. Woolf, and the rest of the authors that my prof is always mentioning..I should have read them in highschool...kasi naman eh..masyado kaming pinapahirapan sa mga requirements na walang saysay..tulad ng mga portfolios(as if namang ma-aaply mo un sa college)puro na lang drawing at pagpapaganda ng notes..eh up to now..pangit pa din naman akong magdrawing...so what did I get out of my HS education??(naku...they'll never forgive me if they read this...lagot ako!!) Sorry ha.. nothing personal..Im just saying what i have observed..I still love my (HS) Alma Matter. Im not saying that Im absolutely right, ok? That's just my opinion..(may freedom of speech kaya sa Pinas)
then.. sa linguistics class ko..wow..un prof ko, she knows, like 5 languages..I wish i could also learn a lot like her..well, right now I can speak French a little and the following sem.. Ill take up Korean..since un naman talaga ang gusto kong matutunan..
ok.. gotta go.. bye..

Its been 3 days..

hello, it has been 3 days since I last posted here.. Ive been quite busy.. and uninterested to post, thats why. My requirements in school are already piling me up.. but i'll be okay. promise..i'll take them one by one..and sooner they be finished. Sana nga..
Grabe. gusto ko na magbakasyon.. I still have an exam on Holy Monday, and maybe even on Holy Tuesday..haay..
But my life is still fine...my grandma celebrated her 69th bday yesterday, and the foods are great.
I haven't been thinking of anyone right now...
Tomorrow, we will be attending a debut of a former classmate of ours in 4th yr.IM so excited.. kc parang reunion na din un...
ok gotta go.. bye

Lost....

God, after reading all the love stories posted in peyups.com.. I am on a dilemma on what my true feelings really are... I feel lost, floating in the air without any direction to go to...
Shit! I dont know if am really over him.. (u know him... like the one Ive been telling u about? E****)Lately, i'm getting the nerves that I still have feelings for him, its just that they are burried deep down in my heart..but im pretty sure that it would come out again, given a chance that I would see him..
I dont know whats up with me that my memory of him would just pop out of nowhere and make me feel lost.. and confused.
I dont know up to when this would last.. maybe for a couple of days.. a couple of days wouldn't hurt at all, since Im used to this unrequited love, for almost how long? 5 years! Yes, 5 years full of hope, confusions, emptiness, and love...
I dont know if I am missing the person or my feelings for him.. I was so assured back then that he was the one I really like, I sheltered myself with that assurance..I was so comforted by the fact that I found the one for me.. although he hasn't found me.. not yet.
And right now..I am no longer sure..
I want to forget all my memories I have of him.. I was the only one who built it.. yet I can't throw it away by myself..

Monday, Feb. 28, 2005

you know what, my classes for the day did NOT meet bec. my professors were out... i dont know if i should be happy about it or not? I guess i am.. i was saved from my report in Eng 11..hehehe. next thursday pa tuloy. But its ok since i have to figure out the connection of the poem "out, out-"by Robert Frost to Macbeth.
i think i am beginning to like someone from one of my classes today... i am not yet sure, ok? so ill rather keep it a secret first..
later, i think i would be cooking an indian food, probably a dessert for my Kas 2 class tomorrow. Goodluck na lang sa kin kc mukhang kakaiba ang mga pagkain nila.
Bye for now.

Saturday, Feb. 26, 2004

We had our "eating" (thats what they call it) of vegetarian dishes in our Yoga class a while ago.. The dishes are very delicious, if I should say.
I don't know whats up with me today.. parang ang sungit ko...I don't like it at all..maybe its just because of the weather...or the pressures going on around me.. basta, i just cant explain it...Im really sorry dun sa nasungitan ko..sorry talaga...i didn't mean to..

Urghh!!! What a Day!!

As of this very moment, I feel so lost and and its like I am not myself today.. We have just finished our exam in French 11.. And its very difficult unlike our exams before in French 10, which I could almost perfect.
Hay!!that's life..
Classes are suspended today around 1 because of the awarding of US n CS. I'm as CS but i didn't know that the ceremony also includes the awarding for CS, i only knew it a while ago.. and its too late. well, never mind...
I am still in a bad mood.. when I say bad mood, i mean i am not the usual happy and optimistic girl that I am..

Monday, Feb. 21, 2004

Ok..this day is quite a busy day. My problematique in English was somhow approved but still I'm quite lost on how to accomplish a 7-10 pages paper on the novel Chronicle of a Death Foretold. It's pressuring me and I don't like it... But it's ok, I can handle it.
I went home straight from class today, which means I was absent for a day in my work.. God! I did miss going home early!! I did this because I have an exam tomorrow in French 11 and I didn't study last weekends..but I have already reviewed as of this moment. Bonne chance pour moi!!
I also got back to the habit of watching an afternoon Korean drama. I miss that habit so much. This days, I don't have much time to watch tv. I only get to watch at night.. well, I don't bother with this so much.

Feb. 18, 2004, Friday

God! I really like this day!!
First of all, while I was waiting for a fx outside the gate near the UP Gym, 3 guys appeared and when I look at one of them, I recognized him as a Player of Granny goose in the PBL, my favorite team... That's Chico Lanete, who's name I happened to forget when I saw him. There are other 2 players with him, I can't remember the face of one of them, but the other one,I think he's the newest addition in the team, im not sure if his surname is Santos. Then, either one or two of them said hi to me. I was very surprised that they did that. So i shyly said hi too.. Then when they are already taking the path toward the gym, I looked at them again (I have the guts to look at them again because I know that by that time their backs should have been turned and they should be looking towards the direction of the gym, and not that of the highway), and saw the guy whom I think is the newest member of their team, smiling at me. And so, I also smiled. Hehehe...
There are other things to be happy about this day, like not having to attend my boring bio 1 class since the professor is nowhere to be found, chatting with my groupmates in kas 2 instead of dealing with the pressure of actually being called to answer a question which i don't know or couldn't care less about, etc.
I hope everyday would be like this day, full of deligthful surprises..

Feb. 17, 2004, Thursday

Today, in our linguistics class, we joined a language game/ quiz bee held in the AS lobby. Naaddah!!we didn't win, tough luck, I guess. Anyway, the experience is fun and we get a chance to learn something new.
I have a lot of things to do today, there is the problematique in Eng, autobigraphy in Kas 2, Research for our report, dialogue in French, etc... HA!! I feel so stressed just thinking of those things...what, I'll do now, is stop worrying about them instead start doing them now!! Gotta go!!
au Revoir!! Bonne journee!!

All I ask of you

This is a song from the movie Phantom of the Opera.
I really like this song very much and up to now, I continously enjoy listening to the musical piece i got from the internet.

All I ask of You

Raoul (Cliff)
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Christine (Sarah)
Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.

Raoul
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.

Christine
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.

Raoul
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you want me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.

Christine
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.

Together
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.

Christine
Say you love me ...

Raoul
You know I do.

Together:
Love me, that's all I ask of you ...

Love me, that's all I ask of you.